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The poll on my story suggested that most of you wanted to hear my honest feelings about a year of injury, those who voted for a recipe, don't worry there is one coming next week ;) This time last year I had raced at Southerns XC and had a disaster the next day. Anyway you have all heard me moan and talk about injury a lot but I thought I would share how I feel about it now, one year on. False hope As you may have read in previous injury posts, I have had my fair share of false hope throughout; I have written posts where I thought I was back in full training and then my ankle flared up again, it became a cycle. Perhaps this happened because I was setting myself unrealistic time frames without enough time to recover but also because I didn’t know 1) what my injury was/the extent of injury (aka lots of different ones) 2) how weak my tendon really was so I wasn’t focussing on strengthen it. Frustration at teammates You may have seen on my story a few weeks ago a repost from @braeofsunshine about feeling angry at team mates. It is difficult to explain I guess but watching my friends and team doing the things I can’t (training hard and racing) is extremely difficult. It is what I worked so hard to do, I felt as if I had lost it, especially because pre-injury I was performing at my best. Brae explains it perfectly “I lost my FREAKING MIND. Early this fall, I went to a not so hot place as a result of this. I was full of so much anger feeling as though I lost everything I’ve worked so hard for, what I cared about most, and, myself. I also found myself angry with others, sort of including all of you on Instagram (no offense) and even my own teammates simply because they were able to do the things I couldn’t. It sounds so awful and selfish to even say that.” Support from team On the other hand I am so grateful for my team, friends and family; they have been there for me when I need a cry (or a few aha) as well as to have a good laugh. Although it is frustrating that they can run and I can’t, I know that they want me to get back (nearly) as much as I do (as they keep telling me <3). I also just want to give a little shoutout to all my triathlon coaches who have been so supportive and understanding through it all. Outdoors and sanity One of the things that I miss the most about not running and cycling is exploring of the outdoors and the time to clear my head. Of course I can go for a walk and I do with the dog but it definitely isn’t the same. I have lost my mind many times with this injury and become a little crazy (yes more than usual aha.) Giving up and motivation
I have had times where I think “What is the point? I am never going to get back to full training again.” It seemed as though every time I took a step forward I took two steps backwards. I have to shake myself out of this mood, whether it means having a boogie to some good tunes, chatting to my friends or going swimming/ to the gym. I remember why I want to get stronger, how far I have come and my goals and love for the sport!!!! Recently… The past two weeks, my attitude has turned upside down. Two weeks ago I was feeling very disheartened as I knew I wouldn’t be able to race this season, I am not going to lie I felt as though part of me had been pulled apart as I love XC so flipping much. Honestly it is not the end of the world, IT IS ONE SEASON OUT OF SO MANY! (I told you I go a little crazy sometimes- I get worked up about little things in a big picture.) This week I have a ‘fire in my belly’ and am feeling determined; I have been doing my rehab religiously! I have changed my frustration into determination, now I just have to persevere. I think my pain free run on Tuesday put me in a good mood! I am hoping this is the upward spiral now! Hope you all had a good weekend, Immie <3
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